Twin WF wants more babies

I am a fraternal twin woman that lost my sister. My little sister had twins. I was born to be a mommy. I have a boy and girl under 5,but going through custody battle/don’t see them full time. I want more babies but not with an abusive, manipulative, narcissistic. He took everything from me and I’m trying to start over again with my babies. I’ve always wanted a big family. I had both my kids naturally. I loved being pregnant and the whole experience. Childbirth is amazing! I’m able to travel and commute from SC to North Carolina..