You can consider me a 'religious' person b/c I am a Christ follower (to the best of my ability) and I try to adhere to christian principles.....so much so that I have been celibate for nearly 20 years hoping that God will bring the man in my life that he has chosen for me. I believed that if try my best to not purposefully engage in 'sinful' activiities, that God will bless my life, marriage, and children when the time is right. I am running out of time...and I'm wondering should I take matters into my own hands...become pregnant by AI (artificial insemination) and have the father coparent with me. I still have the desire to get married. I wonder is 'taking matter into my own hands' wrong. Should I co-parent if I have a secret desire for love and marriage with the right mate. What are the chances are the co-parent becoming the husband and father? What if the coparent has to come second or third should I marry a husband that will accept the child of the co-parent as his own and work out hectic schedule btw our different lives. I come with a clean slate, no baggage...am I setting myself up for failure? I'm new to all of this; however, I have thought about this for more than 15 years...but I did not know if this was the 'right' thing to do for a single christian woman....I still don't know.
I realize that many are you are not conservative, but I welcome your opinions; but keep in mind that I do want to please God even though I have my own 'selfish' desires that I cannot squelch.